Rubiks cube

Last night was nice.

It had been a particularly hard days for me and the boys. planning preschool meant no nap for sam and quite a few public tantrums from jackson. after the kids went to bed brent and i just sat working on our own projects quietly. when we went to bed we were both really tired but read our scriptures together. we're studying preach my gospel and read several series of scriptures on the gospel of jesus christ. anyway. thats not the story.

last night after all of that brent was fiddling around with the rubiks cube. admittedly, the thought crossed my mind to tell him he was waking up too late these days and so we needed to just go to bed. that if he stayed up late playing with it then.... i don't know....some consequence, because dealing with a toddler thats where my mind goes first.

i'm so glad i didn't. i watched him as he made one side all the same color and listened to him tell me different things he's learned about them. we laughed about the fact that i used to move stickers. then he taught me how to solve the first level and how every cube has one specific place it goes for it to all work. he mixed it up and then helped me get one side all the same. i loved it. i relished in his attention. i tend to want to give up and just say its too hard but he helped me. its only a rubiks cube but looking back i feel smarter for learning what i did. learning to solve the first level but learning to wait and not act immediately on a first impulse. its hard for me to over look schedules and a seemingly pressing deadline but when i did i had a perfectly happy moment with my husband practically thrown in my lap. it was nice.

then today, i think i subconsciously used the knowledge to have a moment with jackson. we went to the sprinkler park so i needed a shower and he needed dry clothes. instead we just layed on a blanket on the floor. he was just wearing clean dry oscar the grouch underwear and me in cruddy clothes. i think we just lay there and talked for like 30 minutes. we talked about preschool and the things we'd learn. he said "mom i like just talking." it made me feel so good that he's at an age when just talking is good enough, in fact, what he really wants. it's an hour later and i'm showered and he's clothed but i'm not behind on anything. amazing. moments.